I had only meant to take a week off from my blog, but, well, look what happened.
On March 6th we finally got our snow! Here in Cville, we got anywhere from 8-13". I think we ended up sweeping 10" of heavy snow off our car once it had stopped. After whining all winter about never getting any real snow, my dad was right. Even though it was late in the winter/early in the spring, I got my snow! And even just Sunday we got about 6 more inches that was gone by Tuesday. Ah well.
[3.6.2013]
Then there was the ever lovely Mercury Retrograde which I let effect me and my life way more than I usually do. I still almost feel like I am picking up the pieces, and we're already more then a week of post retrograde craziness. Note to self: don't let this happen again in June. Got it?
Along with the confusion and weirdness that comes with Retrograde, I've been dealing with so much fatigue lately. I wonder if some of it has anything to do with the rough start of my year and finally catching up from it? Anxieties and doubt have been at a high as well, and I know damn well this can really slow someone down.
But I'm back and trying, and I've documented a lot since I've posted so I've got a lot to share! For those of you have stayed, Thank you, again.
Sorry to get a little personal, or more so than I have, but when self doubt crashes your party what are some ways that you find are helpful to take back? Like I was talking with someone else, I know a lot of it depends on the individual and the circumstances, but any ideas would be appreciated <3>
For me, gut feeling every time ... and thinking of what you *want* out of life, not about what may be going wrong. Concentrating on the negative will bring the negative to you, and vice versa ;)
ReplyDeleteHaving a support system helps a lot. I need constant reassurance, though I think I'm pretty good at hiding that, or maybe I'm more passive aggressive about it (though I try not to be). I know we're not supposed to rely on other people for happiness and blah blah, but whatever, perception of ourselves often comes from others. Most of the time, I wallow for a few days, have a few good cries, and often, when I go to work, or hang out with a friend, or the boyface, I'm distracted from it. Distractions bring a lot of clarity for me. Being in an environment where I feel strong and know what I'm doing (ie work, etc) can help get rid of self doubt.
ReplyDeletePS I hope you feel better, dear <3
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel. I'm going through a self-doubt phase myself; actually it's more of doubting myself and everything and everyone around me. I so cannot wait to get over it.
ReplyDeleteIn the meantime, I'm constantly telling myself to focus on the future and things that I'm looking forward to. I always find ways to get myself out of the routine just so I realize that life is much bigger and more important than the little things.
It also helps to focus on your progress, how far you've grown and improved through the years.
Beckaluffagus is right about distractions, too, and the part about finding assurance from other people. It's hard to draw inner strength when you know that you're vulnerable and so being surrounded by positive people who really know you and care about you helps a lot.